My internet is KILLING ME.

Ever since we changed to a new provider, service has been spotty at best and when we DO have it,  it lags like a mofo.

Oh yeah, and if that weren’t enough, half of my life is in boxes that are scattered around our apartment. The other half is ALL ON TOP OF MY DESK.

All of these things serve as reminders from the universe that every single thought and emotion I have is a CHOICE. I have the choice between a negative or positive attitude. I can choose to get stressed about my internet service, or figure out another way to do things. Do I want to freak out about not being able to get online? Or do I want to figure out a way to make it work?

Today I chose the latter. I packed up my computer and headed down the street to Starbucks to finish writing this post. Once I was sitting at a table, sipping on a Passion tea lemonade, things started to seem much clearer. As I’ve said before here on the blog and elsewhere, I’m not religious, but I do believe that things sort of happen the way they are supposed to. I also think that sometimes you end up exactly where you are supposed to be. For me, maybe a job that takes me completely out of my comfort zone is just what I needed. Being faced with so many opportunities to worry about what I might or might not book for next year, if my work is good enough, if my clients are happy with their images…I’m forced to take a step back and relax a little bit and just CHILL OUT.